It's Never Too Easy....

It's never too easy to be with a Soldier..
It's never too easy to hold that hand once and let it go over and over again..
It's never too easy to wait for him in the shelter when he goes out there and braces the storm..
It's never too easy to hold onto that single hope in your heart..
It's never too easy when a creepy thought in your head makes its way through your heart..
It's never too easy to maintain your smile in front of your family when your heart inconsolably weeps inside..
It's never too easy to wait for that single call, wide awake, be it 2 or 3 just to know that he is safe..
It's never too easy to celebrate every special day without him by your side..
It's never too easy to know that he feels exactly the same way..
It's never too easy to see some news and being thankful to God that it was not him..
It's never too easy to connect to someone's loss and feel guilty to be happy at times..
It's never too easy to make your kids understand why their father can't be there for their birthdays, annual days, sports days..
It's never too easy to see your parents glued to TV sets when something happens out there..
It's never too easy to stop yourself from getting weak in knees while seeing him after months & months of separation..
It's never too easy to watch him taking out his things from a suitcase in his own home..
It's never too easy to make yourself aware of the ready to go Shoes on your doorstep..
It's never too easy to bid that goodbye, give that final kiss not knowing when will you hold him again..
It's never too easy to be married to a Soldier..
Oh and yes my dear friend,
It's never never too easy to enjoy those perks, facilities, parties and home at exotic places when you have to barter a piece of your Soul for that...!!!

© Swati Atre